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you dont know how it feels.
Sunday, February 12, 2012 @ 3:58 PM

So, CA1 is approaching in 1 WEEK. 1 FREAKING WEEK.
Reality hits so hard, its like you dont have enough time.
Why is time something which you cant turn back? Regrets haunt me everyday, and im wondering why I didnt work harder, why this why that.
I guess everyone does have regrets, even the most 'perfect' people.
I honestly dont know why Im doing this, when ive tons of things to do now.
But the truth is that... I'm scared.
Scared of failure. Have you ever been afraid to try hard not because the process would be too
tough to handle but because you're afraid that your efforts you've put it wont reap into what you want? Sometimes i honestly cant even face myself, im just way too useless.
I feel like a failure cos sometimes I try so hard yet my results are like crap, and the worst
thing is just cos im in SN, my parents and whole family think I'm smart.
i dont want to disappoint them. Cos i know myself the best.
Its not that i dont try honestly, I DO. I put in effort in most of the things i do yet NOBODY sees it. Like teachers. They think im just lazy and stupid which is supposedly true, but..
thats why i gotta prove them wrong.
I wish i was clever, pretty, talented, great personality, now i dont even know what i want to be in the future, what the future holds for me.
Its painful to see disappointments.
This isint emo-ing, its just expressing feelings.
Conclusion: Have faith. Im just gonna trust God, cause he has a great plan for me. Whatever it is, just live each day at a time, let tomorrow worry for itself.
Everyone has good and bad days. Its those bad days that hurt the most.
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Hummingbird Heartbeat
Thursday, October 20, 2011 @ 8:40 PM


Heyyyss(:
Nobody would read this but.. oh well. hehehe eoys are over yayyyyy!:)
Okay, majorly screwed up. Sigh. I just dont know how to feel right now.. Yknow the feeling of putting in so much effort, having so much faith and yet... the results are ): did so horribly. seriously. my l1r5 is like crap. Nevertheless, I just wanna thank God no matter what that I survived this year.
This year wasnt easy, at all. But by God's grace, yes ive survived yipeeee(: heehee. Thank god im not retaining seriously.... haha, this year looking back had loads of ups and downs.
I think im just an insecure person naturally and well... yeah a lot of things relied on my faith in God to give me the strength to go on :) HAHA.
Thank God for all my good friends, reallyreallyreally thankful for them and my cell sists(': for always being there for me. :)
yayyyyy eggcited to go Korea end of year! im so determined to make this holidays really really meaningful. :) Shall go SHOPPINGGGG (CLOTHESINEED!), STUDYING, learn piano and hmmm just be happy:) And grow in the Lord!
Cant wait for dec church camp!!! YIPEEEEEEEE WAHHAHA.
okay, jasmine's wedding coming up too! Cant wait max:))
lalallala, i think quek really hates me alot. Oh well. i dont wanna do her homework.
gosh, i feel so freaking immature.
I wanna be there for you yet.... i just dont like the way you make me feel like a subsitute. Maybe thinking too much's the problem. haha okay i know what im saying now doesnt make sense but... hahaahha. whatever. :)
UNLEASHED TMR. YESSSS CAN SEE MY CELL SISTERS AGAIN<3 LURVE THEM SO MUCH KEKEKEKK.
kay shall go bathe now:) bye dears!
BTW. X FACTOR IS SO. SO.SO AWESOME.
love drew, rachel crow, caitlyn, melanie, jazzlyn, stacy, james, marcus, intensity, lakoda rayne, 4 shore, the ansers and ALOT MORE!!(: yay.
heeehee.

bye:)
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OMGOMGOMG
Wednesday, September 7, 2011 @ 12:21 AM


OMG THIS IS SERIOUSLY THE. BEST. DRAMA IVE EVER WATCHED! TIED WITH FTLY. okay maybe its 2nd best but still!
ITS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO FREAKING FREAKING sweet and emotional and funny like crazy and just simply. breathtakingly. awesome:)
I love rainie yang like nuts she's so freaking pretty and she acts so well(: omg and joseph's quite cute also, i realized.
I dont care that ive cca tmr, im still here spazzing:D
The ending was THE.BEST. ending ive ever watched in all the dramas<3 sweet recollections.
Omg, seriously go watch it.
Rainie yang cries super duper duper duper well and natural. :)
Fated to love you, drunken to love you <3
hehe.
I feel sad and empty now that its over :(
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Holidayyssss
Thursday, September 1, 2011 @ 6:46 PM

hello peeps!(:
Okay, so today is the official start of the Sept Hols!:D Not much of hols though. Ive to really really be serious and mug for eoys starting from now. No joke, if i screw eoys, my life is over. Seriously ): Yep so today got back report book and it was screwed D: I cant get into JC wtf. argh, my results have been dropping like crazy this year. I used to get like what, at least 5As? Now im simply struggling to pass every subject, which is totally HARD. sighhhhh. My L1R5 increased like 9 points since term 1! omg ): I think quek and lee both hate me cos i suck at all their subjects and i failed their subjects.. IM sorryyyyyy :(( gah.
Okay, haha so today was Teachers day celebration. It was the most boring celebration of my lifeeeee :( totally sat and rotted for an hour. Its like, the whole atmosphere was so dead, and even the performances and the teachers expressions were-.-. LOL. Then had an hour of recess, and a period of math. Ms quek is so cute :) She clearly likes getting all the presents she still acts as if she doesnt care! HAHAHAHA.

OHOH, did i tell you! Today's my dad's birthdayyy :D:D Baked chocolate chip muffins just now, just waiting to put whipped cream and strawberries nowww!:) But personally, i think its nicer to look at than eat :X hahahhah. Yay, going out with cell tmr!!(: Cell outing after SO LONG! whoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo:) hehehe and wow chase on Saturday. :D kay, so life has been not bad recently, attended likshi's and brittany's birthday parties and it was FUNFUNFUN!:) both their houses are like, TOTALLY AWESOME!(: sigh, wanted to sleepover at likshi's but my mom didnt allow :((((
heh, anyway. sigh, gotta stop slacking and really put my heart into studying. Im learning to have faith and peservere through tough situations, even though it might be hard(:
okays, gotta go! blog soon(:
bye guys!:DD
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My heart's a stereo, it beats for you, so listen close.
Thursday, August 18, 2011 @ 12:03 AM






The essence of love.




































A picture just speaks a thousand words, doesnt it. I love photography.



Hey guys(;
okay I know its been ages since I last posted. Haha, sudden urge to post after CAs. Okay, goodnews!

CA3 IS OFFICIALLY OVER! *Throws Confetti*

So today was A math, last paper for CAs(: Hmm, im pretty nervous for the results, but I keep reminding myself to have faith. Heh, so over the past few months, a lot have happened. Just looking back at my previous posts, I sort of miss life in Sec 2 and I feel that i was really immature then. Still are now, but (: being happy is the most important right. Haha,sigh. Life....

Okay, so the papers were mostly okay, I really really studied my hardest for most papers this term and yeah, trusting God and hoping for the best! Cos, my God is a God that provides(:


Yeah, CAs may be stressful and tiring, but they toughen up your faith. Without obstacles, you arn't able to see the great plans God has for you.


I guess no one really reads my blog now, but oh wells(: just having alot on my mind

Haha, so today got home and slept for the first time in ages(Y) The feeling of replenishing sleep was just so.. amazing. Was just so exhausted, mentally and physically from the past few weeks. Im pretty happy now in 3L, somedays just feel like crap but somedays are awesome, but oh well, thats life as we know it. Haha, quek is cute as usual. She's so motherly and nice to laugh at :) Yep, so sat next to Rachel Quek for the last term. HAHA, she's reallyyy nice to crap and talk to! but i must really focus more ):hahaha.

Anyways, the show Love keeps going is SOOOOOO NICE AND CUTE AND AWESOME *screams* the guy is hot, for the main reason. No matter which angle, he's so cute(: *see the first picture* HAHA.

I feel like crying now, the show is damn sad.

Sigh, speaking of, back to cca stuff. got my position pretty long ago, Sec 3 Squad NCO 2012. Im like :/ really uncertain about myself yet.... I believe thats God's plan for me. Haha.

So, life has been tiring but happy in a sense(: I thank God for all my AWESOME friends! Whoo, plus cell sisters:) you guys are the best. Just seeing them, crapping, talking about life, complaining about studies, problems etcetc, eating dinner, spazzing, just worshipping God, is just plain awesome. I just feel so refreshed and happy after every mentally exhausting week, seeing them every Saturday. So if any of you see this, I LOVEEEE YOU :)

Well, its 12.34 now hehe. I can successfully say I hardly use facebook nowadays(: ive been stolen by twitter thats why, haha. Anyway, to anyone reading this: Smile(: your beautiful.

Okay, i figured i should sleep soon! hehe, school tmr. Scared of papers we're getting back.

Ugh, idk why my emotions are going haywire lately, feeling so emotional and all suddenly:/ anyway! hehehhehe did i mention, JASMINE'S GETTING MARRIED! okayy that was super cool. Like when andrew proposed, we were all hiding at the staircase looking like a bunch of hobos and everyone was staring weirdly, then he proposed and we were secretly taking pics :') hahahhahha so happy for her(: they're super cute together. Then ikea-d for dinner yumyum! chicken wings, meatballs, DIEM CAKE. OHMYGOSH. that was so. good. (: ohhhhh and yippee,i think im going korea for hols eoy. OHYEAAAAA FINALLY A CHANCE TO SEE SNOW. :)

HAHA.

Okayokay.

Ive gtg, my mom's annoyed. Nights peeps, sleep well! (:


Take me back to the house in the backyard tree, said you'll beat me up, you were bigger than me, you never did, you never did~ Take me back to the time where we walk down the aisle, the whole town came and our mamas cried, you said I do, and I did too. Take me back to the house where we met so many years before, we'll rock our babies on the very front porch.~

Mary's song- Taylor swift:)





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God's wonders of love.
Sunday, June 12, 2011 @ 12:32 AM

Hey guys:) okay my blog is super super dead and i bet no one reads it now ): okay anyways its the JUNE HOLIDAYS! *throws confetti* even though im super busy and it doesnt even feel like one...
Okay anyways, some updates on life. Life's been really really hectic and pretty rollercoaster-ish, but im happy(: sometimes it takes you to go through so much to really realize how much God has granted in your life and be grateful about it.
Just came back from IDOL camp a week ago and it was one word : Simple awesome. Okay that makes two:) Really felt the prescence of God, and reallllyyyyyy bonded with my cell sisters! LOVE THEM SOOOO MUCH:) I really love church and cell nowadays, its like i feel so bonded and meeting them everyweek is just simply awesome. Oh! back to camp, each session was really touching and emotional to everyone, and learnt alot. I really hope this fire in me doesnt die out. Yeah and it was soooooo fun! In malaysia, many inside jokes, hurhurhur* and pigging out!:P WHEEEEE~ what could be better right (x Wanted to photo spam, but apparently blogger the photo thing isint working now so yeah, bear with me:D
Yup, then today spent the whole day with cell sists.:D it was really awesome, as usual:) gdop tmr! woohoo!
hmmm cca post interview coming up, scary :X
gonna trust God, thats what i really learnt. Faith is really important. We're all just mere humans, we cant do this alone. No point worrying or fearing, but just having faith.
Hmmm, somehow i feel that ive changed, hopefully for the better(:
HAHA. happppyyy kid now.
Beast on rainy days is NICEEEE:) AND UKISS'S 0330;)
I LOVE SLOW KOREAN SONGS:)
Hmmm okay, thats all for now i guess! Update soon. if i feel like:)
HEHE.
Nights people, getting eyebags! T.T WHOO! :D
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Chiangrai trip and life:) Memories say a thousand words.
Sunday, April 3, 2011 @ 9:10 AM



Awesome memories~



Its a beautiful night, and we're looking for something dumb to do~ hey baby, i think i wanna marry you.


Hey guys:) realised my blog totally died.:( hahhaa. yeah, gonna post one now! hahahha so life in sec 3 has been relaly hectic. and now, ITS ONE MORE PAPER LEFT TILL THE END OF CA2! I need the strength to press on. It has been really tiring and sometimes i just feel so drained and demoralized, like why are we working so hard when the result isint even what we want:( okay i should be positive and trust God. No matter what, he always provides a way. Anyway, i thank God for all my good friends ive made this year in 3L, its a really quite bonded fun and retarded class even though (too) noisy sometimes. Sigh, teachers keep demoralizing us by telling us how hopeless we are. Thanks. thanks a lot.
Anw, in march went to CHIANGRAI. And it was the BEST.BEST.BEST experience ever. Even though the weather was totally freezing cold and many people fell sick and there was a language barrier, it was an experience I WOULD NEVER FORGET. The friendships ive made, the kids, everything is totally touching and awesome. I really miss my kids right now:(( Janya and supaporn and all the awesome kids there. TITICHAI,VUTTICHAI,PURICHAIYA,KRIPET, all of them. love them so much. so cute and innocent and iphone obsessed.:)) hehe. yeap and supaporn's birthday passed alr and i feel really really bad cos it was CA period and i didnt have time to write letter and give her her presents:( omg gonna do that asap after CAs.
Sigh, a math feels kinda hopeless now.
God, please please please make a miracle for all my papers. Ive gotta do well....
Anyway, cant wait for June! cant wait to go out and chill and just slack!
woohoo:)) hahaha im really sleepy now.
Anw so many things have happened. yeah..
what ive learnt is that, i cant do this alone. God's with me:)
anyway, long weekend cos GE is coming tmr! workers party vs pap, HAHA, tin peiling is a joke. seriously lols!
politics are making everyone really heated up~ but im like just okayyy~ chill man. hope PAP wins though. Im afraid that workers party may not have the experience and may screw spore. But, if we never give them the chance, how would we know right? oh well, its god's decision, not mine:) hehe. its 12. :D
A math a math amath. Its really tough and demoralizing..
anywayyyyy, v into twitter:) hahahha fb and blogging seems kinda boring, so yeah:(
hope someone actually visits my blog? lol. felt so freaking emo today cos im really. mentally drained. and parents and teachers dont help much:( all teachers know how to do is scold and tell us how badly we did for tests and saying that we're hopeless. PLEASE, we're gonna prove them wrong. 3L is a lot more than that. its just that they are currently blind :D
sigh, sleepyyyyy. I WANNA WATCH FORENSIC HEROES SO BAD. MDM MA IS SO CUTEEEEEEEEE WITH IVAN:) HEHHHEHE. but my comp is taking ages to load and i couldnt watch just now! heh:(
anw thats all for now! will blog soon:) if i want to! hehehe.
PLEASE TAG KAY! LOVESSSS:)
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F_cking Perfect (HQ) by Pink (lyrics)
Wednesday, February 23, 2011 @ 8:31 PM

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Enchanted By Taylor Swift [Lyrics]
@ 8:30 PM

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